.: December 2011

love;

a profoundly tender, passionate affection for anotherperson.

a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, asfor a parent, child, or friend.

sexual passion or desire.

a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person;sweetheart

relationship;

connection, association, or involvement.

trust;

reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of aperson or thing; confidence.

confident expectation of something; hope.

control;

act or power of controlling; regulation; domination orcommand: Who's in control here?

i thought i would let you know that my love for you is burning bright. my heart longs for you. my heart longs to leap at the sound of your voice. my heart longs to be filled with joy by your smile. my heart longs for my love, respect and adoration to flow to you as i gently kiss you. my heart longs to be warmed when i hold you in my arms. my heart longs to feel the passion as i stroke your face, stare into your beautiful eyes and kiss you. my love longs to see our love for one another grow as we sit on the couch and we share from the heart. my heart longs to express my love for you as i rub your leg while we talk. i miss you. i want to be with you and hold you. i want to gently touch your face and cup your cheeks in my hand as i look up into your eyes. i want to snuggle and cuddle with you just to be close to you. i want to hold your hand across the table at a restaurant. i want others in the restaurant to be jealous of our intimacy and our tender affection for one another. i want to lie next to you in front of the fire and gaze into your eyes while i rub your back i want to romance you. i want you to know how beautiful you are in my eyes. i want you to know how much i cherish and adore you. i want to give my heart to you. i want your heart, i want it all. i hope that destiny will bring us back so i never have to say goodbye. your entry into my life breathed life into mine. it gave me excitement for each new day and i looked forward with anticipation to each time i could see you. in all of life, i have never really felt so at peace and content as when i was on your arms. i was enthralled but the beauty of your smsile which sent shivers down my spine and would make me do that little squished face i do when i get all giddy inside. there will always be a place in my heart... i will never be so relaxed with anyone else in my life. i long to be near you. i want nothing more than to be close to you. ill miss the smell of your hair and the taste of your lips. i miss your head resting on my chest. your my everything, your my rock and your my soul mate. i honestly dont know where to start. we have bene together for 14 months and we have had many problems along the way. ive mistreated you, spoke to you inappropriately, acted like things are not a big deal, lied to you, ignored you and still you stayed. you stated. because you believed in something, you stayed whether we were "compatible" or not is totally irrelevant. i know we have a future. i just want to let you know im sorry. im sorry for being so hateful, childish, selfish, hopeless. im sorry for not caring when i said i did, not listening when i said i would. im fucking so sorry for throwing a waay the wonderful life you offered. im sorry for not speaking up when i should have, not being as assertive as i could have been, not respecting myself enough to know that my self-loathing was being spilled over onto you. i've blamed you, i am wrong. i love you the only way i know how to love a person. i cant tell you enough or in the right words how sorry i am for the things that i've done. i wish i could take back Brad, lying and everything else. you were suppose to be the person i loved more than anything, and i betrayed you and hurt you the worst i could have. i wish i could be stronger at times when we were fighting not egg you on and just to be able to apologise to you to make it stop. i love you and will pray every night for us to get back together as we were doing so well and for us to get the trust and love we once had, please never forget i love you more than anything and you mean the world to me.